Brain Thread

There’s something that wants to come out right now, but I’m not sure which ‘something’ I want to hold the cage upon for.  That’s the way it ends up after watching a great film, seeing something inspiring, drinking a eye-opening song or album.  And that’s where I am right now.

I’m in bed.  There are sleep noises all around me: hum of the laptop’s fan, sag of bed, churning of the heater, jangle as it turns off.  I want to write about inspiration, but I won’t.  I want to write about where an idea begins, but I won’t.  So, let’s go with train of thought.

Apparently, I’ve been told, the train that sits in the station in my head does not make all the stops a lot of other people’s does.  There are a few that try to tie that to this disability thing that I won’t get into but I doubt that’s it.  After all, could a disability shape one’s perspective?  Could it form the pattern?  Could it extrapolate the projected path from someone mentioning how beautiful the sunset is to me just stopping, completely shutting down?  Nah, that doesn’t make much sense.  My brain does that.  Sure, the route isn’t necessarily predetermined all the time but more often than not, it is.

I’m a staunch believer in thought nodes.  What I mean to say is that the phycological star I hitch my theory to is that there are these nodes, interconnected through synapses, of thoughts, memories, images that are spaced out throughout the brain.  Now, these nodes are just the generalized notions, the most basic, boiled down generality of things.  Hmm…let’s try this again.  Yellow, green, and blue are all colors.  They’re all defined within that umbrella, right?  Right.  So, there’s a node.  Colors: Yellow, green, blue, etc.  The problem is that green is comprised of both blue and yellow, so those branches are connected independently of the umbrella: color.  Following?  Awesome.

So, here’s the thing: these items in the brain, plus the nodes that they branch from are associated and organized specifically.  So, I’m saying, my brain associates things differently then most.  Why?  Because there’s one giant node, in my head, that all other nodes are threaded.  All other branches can be lead back to one, universal mega-node: God.

Wow, I just went all over the place.  Anyway, with God firmly established, with this “mega-node” as the backbone, the fundamental, purest, first creative point well established I can say that all inspiration and thought stems from that source: God.

Was that coherent at all?  I’m not sure.

I watched ADAPTATION tonight for the first time and my brain immediately went to the way it’s wired and why.  So, I guess that’s an explanation of who I am and how I think.  I guess.  Some train, huh?